Unbearable Suffering: My Fight Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden pain bloomed behind my right eye. Then came rapid shocks, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with intense discomfort behind one eye that persists for several hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with sudden, severe agony focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize life around erratic pain took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing texts propose unusual remedies for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common headache disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some people.

But leading specialists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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Rachel Gardner DDS
Rachel Gardner DDS

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